It's been a long time...

I miss myself. I feel as though I have lost myself somewhere and I can't seem to find me again. I see me sometimes, I look happy, I look fine, but I don't really recognize me. Feels like whatever I touch turns rotten and it's this mood that I need to get out of...this skin is making me bitter.

Now just to relax!

Geez, I haven't posted on here for a long time, and it's not cause I have nothing to say, cause I do.

My life right now has been so fast moving and sometimes it feels like I can't catch my breath. Some of it really great and other parts not so wonderful. But the good parts are finally starting to out weigh the bad.
I have finally started living my own life, doing what I want and when I want to do it. Well, unless my parents of course, want me to do something.

Seems like my old friends and family are coming out of the woodwork and how I have missed them so much. I am getting a heck of a lot better at paying my bills, rent and learning how to cook. Seems like I did a lot of growing up within the past two months, more so than the rest of my 35 years. My children are happy, Juhnea's moving home, and I, I am content, relaxed and pleasantly at peace.

The weather outside is beautiful, the birds are chirping and the flowers blooming...what more can I ask for. Besides money, a house on a tropical beach, diamonds, pearls and a lemon tree in my yard.....ha ha

Before I go......

Things to do before I die.....

1. Find a pearl in an oyster.
2. Go on an African Safari
3. Walk on the beach and collect shells and look for starfish
4. Get a Divorce
5. Get married (again) in Las Vegas by an Elvis impersonator...
6. Get a face lift
7. Go to New Zealand and see my best-est friend.
8. Swim with dolphins
9. Make love on a forest floor
10. Shower in a waterfall
11. Learn to juggle
12. Spend a night in a haunted hotel

There are so many more, my list could go on forever...but I will stop there.

WOO HOO! Looking good.........

(Horoscope for today) Overview:
You bob and weave and get free of something that had been holding you back -- it s easier than ever to follow your mood and do things your way! It s a good time to make big, sudden moves.

Well, well, well, looks like I am going to be getting my way afterall!

What a beautiful day......

Today's Horoscope......

Now is a great time for you to make a play for something (or someone) you want. Your desires are almost magic on a day like today, and you should be able to get closer than ever before.

My favorite secret...
Yeppers, I have one...and it's my favorite.

Horoscopes, ties and lawns.......

Well I have successfully mowed my first lawn, and I didn't expect it to be soo much work. I do know that I enjoyed the first couple of rows and then after that it really sucked. Why does grass have to grow to fast?

Plus I tied my first tie, I did have to go on-line and find a video to help me, but nevermind, my son will look handsome today as he wears his first suit to work.

My Horoscope for today...

Quickie:
If you just say something nasty and walk away, the problem isn't really solved.

Overview:
You need to make sure that you re really dealing with any relationship issues that are bubbling up today. Avoiding them is guaranteed to make them worse, but your openness is reassuring.

Happy Birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE!

Have a wonderful day and I hope you catch a big fish.

Freaking Hilarious..........

For those of you who know me, I check my horoscope almost daily. As I was searching for today's horoscope I found this website...this is my horoscope...

Scorpions beware. That old boyfriend you've dreamed of for years, the one that has always had a little piece of your heart, has been reincarnated. To bad for you, it is a cross reincarnation with that of your ex. So be on your toes for new men in your life. It's a Jekyl—Hyde kind of thing.

http://www.singlemoms.org/jfy/hilarious_horoscopes.htm

Summertime....

Summertime has finally come. Paulette and I took Karen and Taylor to a small fair at the mall the other day. It was awesome, the rides were great, even though there was not that many. It was super hot out.

My New Chapter...

I am finally in control of my life, and the fun part is starting a whole new chapter. Whether it's kind of scary or not, I get to write and have the lead role. Hummmmmmm, where to start and how to begin?

Some things change and others will no doubt be the same. But one thing is forsure, I will be me, and all the things I wanted to do and the things I have dreamt about doing will be on my list...

I did find that people will come and go and whether I want to hang on to those people or not. It's not my choice, if they don't want to be there then all I can do is let them go. I have to make myself happy before I can make anyone else happy...

Listen to me...I sound all grown up. Ha Ha Ha, that's one thing that won't change, I don't want to grow up nor do I have to. Bubbles and butterflies.......

My Sissy....

She does love me...

Introducing....

Karrylynn Juhnea Fayant, finally she has arrived, and as beautiful as can be! She doesn't know it yet....but I'll be her favorite Auntie!

I am broken...

Yep, broken, right in half. The weather stinks, it snowed yesterday....I am suppose to be planting a garden this weekend.

I do have a backbone...

Your inner strength is peaking, so it s a good time to confront spiritual crises or stand up to those who would push you down. It s pretty hard for you to fail, and even failure works out well for you!

Today's horoscope is hopeful... Wonder what the weekend will bring?

Horoscope for today...

You can get the message today -- but it s harder than usual. You need to rely on intuition, and you also need the luck to be in the right place at the right time, but when it all adds up, you know.

Okay I am confused...geez, I need intuition, luck and be in the right place at the right time...come on. Could life be any harder? Plus I don't think I got the message today.

An Icy pic-nic in the Park...

Joe and I took Karen and Drew for a ride this past weekend...we ended up going to Fort Qu'Appelle and decided to drive to the lake for a pic-nic...

Drew my crazy nephew, went into the lake, up to his knees, there was ice so close he broke a piece off for Karen. His legs were so red. We had an awesome time...

We took the long way around back to Regina...stopped at Indian Head and took pictures at the big head. It was nice and a good day spent.

Voices of the North

I went to an Aboriginal Music Showcase at the casino Regina for a Regina Food Bank Fundraiser. It was an awesome show, I went with a couple friends, Geri and Sandra. The food was awesome and the music was amazing. All the performers were Aboriginal and all from Saskatchewan... It was an good night.

I even ran into so many people that I haven't seen in years.

One being my Auntie.......Good Times!

A super nice long weekend...

Hummmm…I feel kinda guilty about not posting anything for a while now. I am on the continuous hunt for a new home…so far no luck. No luck with anything that I will be happy with.

I had a wonderful Easter holiday. I spent a couple hours cutting a sponge to the shape of a rabbit’s foot so that I can paint tracks on the floor around the house…only to have no kids’ home on Easter morning.

Took Karen and Taylor for ice-cream in the park…walked with my mom and Aunt Delia. It was a good visit, one that we will have to do again.

Fool me once, shame on you…

How many times should a person forgive someone?? What is the old saying, fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me… What about the third or fourth time? Are you an idiot for believing in someone after they apologize, or is it just letting that person get away with what they had done? Again, is there where gullible comes in…or is it forgiveness? I wonder? Should what is being done to you, be done to them? Maybe if you are evil enough…could that be a possibility…hummmm, you can’t see it, but my fingers are tapping together so evilly.

The practice of forgiveness has been shown to reduce anger, hurt depression and stress and leads to greater feelings of hope, peace, compassion and self confidence. Practicing forgiveness leads to healthy relationships as well as physical health. It also influences our attitude which opens the heart to kindness, beauty, and love.

Black & White Party

I attended a Black & White Birthday Party for my friend and co-worker Sandra. Paulette was my date. It was very nice, relaxed and pleasant. Everyone had to wear black and white, we each brought a food dish since it was potluck. I “cooked” meat and cheese platter with a veggie and dip tray…yeah, I bought it…they know of my cooking skills. Sandra had this scrapbook album with all the decorations on a side table for anyone who wanted to write her a birthday wish. It had pages with family and accomplishments. It was a brilliant idea, one I will steal for my own birthday. I really enjoyed it. Sandra is blessed with a wonderful family, beautiful girls and amazing friends…

Juhnea came home, we watched movies and had a good time. Joey really likes to poke fun at his sister and wrestling, I could watch them for hours. Karen had Rae-dean over…We drove around for a while, no place special to go, just drove and drove.

Paulette left for Vancouver…hope she has a safe flight and a wonderful time…