Good Times...

The weekend was a good one. I took the afternoon off on Friday to finish Juhnea’s “new” bedroom, and when she got home she liked it. I was so nice to have her back home, and I have missed her soo much. We just hung around and I hugged her and hugged her every chance I got.

I did do a few things this weekend. I did make a new pattern for a bracelet, finished it all in a couple hours. I made it with copper and beads with a tile centre piece. I like it. Not bad, not bad at all. My mom came over to help me make some bannock, and it was tasty. I even make a couple with jam in the middle.

Oh, Joe and I decorated for Halloween, brought up the huge picture that I made, with the skull and trees. I even attached a couple strings of light onto the trees and it looks good. I still have a couple ideas left that I would like to add to it. I can only hope that it gets better every year. I kinda forgot how huge it was.

Open my eyes!

Have you ever talked to someone who makes you really think, think of things around you, things that happen to you? I have this friend, Marilyn, who at first I was a little scared of, but as she talked and talked she started to make perfect sense to me. She has these huge beliefs and this whole way of thinking that really appeals to me. Kind of puts my mind at ease and makes me have that hope that there is something better, that there is a solution to every crisis and event that happens in my life.

I am far from being religious, and don’t practice any type of religion. But I did receive a little book from another friend of mine, Pauline. Now this book is filled with daily prayers and little quotes from the bible, it sat on my dresser for months. Then as I was going through a rough patch I opened it up, read it, memorized some of the little prayers and you know what…I wasn’t so stressed anymore. So let me tell you, I read and reread some of those passages, and slept on it. Somehow those worries and those tears are not as bad as they were the night before. I will get through this, and in the end there will be a reason for all this madness and my only hope is…that at the end of it all it will be a solution for the better.

So enough with the deep stuff and it’s time to get on with the sunshine and harmony that I try so hard to live by.

I feel Broken!

Ever wonder if you make the right choices and pick the right battles?

Juhnea has decided she would like to go and try live with her father. My heart breaks. I let her go, unwillingly. I am so sad, I miss her so much already.

I have to pick up my broken pieces and hold them together for Joey and Karen. It’s so hard though, I just want to curl up and sleep until I can’t anymore.

Stress and more stress...

It’s been a stressful weekend. Karen was gone most of the weekend to my sister Paulette’s. Taylor came up so they had a sleepover. That was so good, took a load off my shoulders. I didn’t have to worry about Karen; I knew she was in good hands.

Juhnea stressed me out big time this weekend. So needless to say she is grounded, grounded, grounded.

My son, he worked and hung out with his friends.

My weekend was stressful, worrying about the girls. I was so stressed that I really didn’t do a whole lot. Just stayed home until the walls started to close in. Then I did go out for a bit to visit.

Not my most productive weekend ever.

The leaves are changing color fast. I seen a tree on the weekend, the most orange tree that I have ever seen. That means winter is coming…

All Hallows Eve Necklace

Juhnea and I thought we would start on our Halloween crafts. So we came up with this awesome necklace. It's with black and clear beads, the head of a doll and a heart of glass. It's kinda morbid looking, but perfect for Halloween.

Coffee, Sisters and Plants...

Friday, I spent most of the day with Vernessa, my mom and sister, Catherine. It was a good day spent and I really enjoyed the time with them.

Paulette picked me up on Saturday to go to the Lumsden garden centers. We stopped at each one and she bought a lot of vegetables. We picked up cucumbers, acorn squash, onions, carrots, some cheddar cauliflower (which is the same color as cheddar cheese and tastes a wee bit spicy), spinach and Swiss chard in a rainbow of colors. At one garden center there was amazing art work that was done in steel. Huge pieces that were absolutely lovely.

For the remaining part of the weekend, it was pretty quiet. I didn't do a whole lot and mainly just stayed home. Tried to keep on top of the housework and even managed to bead a few pairs of earrings.

I am so Frustrated!!!!!!

Ever have one of those neighbours who just ERK you? I try to be nice to everyone, but this one takes the cake. She has a son the same age as my youngest daughter…he likes to call her mean and hateful names. Likes to smash windows and vandalize property. He even likes to take me on once and a while. Unlike the rest of the block, I am very confrontational when it comes to my children. And unlike my neighbour I will punish my kids if they disrespect and cause any damage to anyone’s property…which they don’t.

Let me tell you, it came close to blows the other day as I confronted her about her kid calling my daughter really bad things. She constantly defends her bizarre child, even though I never see her outside checking on him. I have not met a child like this, a young racist, and I swear he is going to grow up to be a serial killer. He has the look! He likes to tell my child that he will cut her head off and gut her. He will jump past my front window and give us the finger. He tells her to clean his toilet with her tongue. Even throws mud at my back door…as she said “it’s just mud”, I told her to get the hell back there and clean it then. She hasn’t yet, and I don't expect her to. I can only come to the conclusion that her parenting skills are reflected on her kid...pity!

What does a parent do in this situation? He’s too young to call the police and as she smugly told me that they would do nothing. I am fed up with this, frustrated and really scared that this young Dalmer will really hurt my daughter. I keep her inside when I know he is lurking out there, which is not fair to her.

I am venting……I feel a bit better! Another day and probably another argument.